As this year comes to it’s conclusion, I realize that I look forward to it’s demise with much anticipation…

For this is the year I will not be getting a phone call from my parents wishing me a happy new year, nor any other year from this year forward…

This has been a year of loss, adjustment,healing, and becoming stronger…

And finally, it is time to face the New Year, with all it’s promise, putting our best foot forward and seize the year and make it the best year ever, while looking back at the past, not with regret, but with respect and reverence to the two people who are still the most important in my heart, and are there with me always.

So, to Baby New Year, and all it’s promise!

May this New Year be a bright and Happy Year for my family, and for yours!

Good Morning Mom & Dad.

It’s your first Christmas together in heaven, and while your family celebrates the day together, our thoughts wander back to Christmas’s past and of the times together shared.

Today, I celebrate our life together, with no regrets, and lots of fond memories and love for you both today.

I hope you both enjoy your day together, and take a moment to spread the light of your  love, and joy upon your family on this, our first Christmas without you both present with us.

Your Loving Son…

Lewis

I have been thinking about how close Christmas is now, and I’m trying to decide just what I’m feeling at this point…but I just don’t know.

There are moments that I think of you a few years ago around the holidays with Dad still here and how much I looked forward to our usual Christmas Eve dinner at the house, and how you and Sue would pass the pkgs around and wait to see the looks on our faces after we would open a gift.

I also remember the first Christmas without Dad, and how tough it was for you to even look at Sue decorating the house.

That was a pretty tough day for the both of us, and I was glad when you went to the city to stay with the family there.

I knew it was better for you that way.

And last Christmas was better for us wasn’t it…it didn’t seem to hurt so much, and we were all smiling ( well I wasn’t when all I got were clothes! ) and again, you were in Brooklyn for the New Year.

This year is different, now both you and Dad are gone, and there are the dark moments that I still have now and then.

I don’t know how I will feel on Christmas Eve or Christmas day…I guess I will have to just wait and hope for the best…

Lewis